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I don't give a fuck anymore..

Just had a fight with the E.

He doesn't want traditional bullshits, just a simple matrimonial and a small reception. Fair enough. I told him to tell his parents thats what he wants. No frills. And he tells me I haven't been listening, that I don't understand, that there's no way he can get what he wants.

You want nothing. A nothing but simple ceremony. How can that be so hard to achieve? Nothing is not hard to achieve seriously. I'm not being mean at all. Just frank. You dont want it, say it. If you say it, you'll get what you want. All's good. If you don't say it (becos u assume they would say no), then you will never know if they wud have said yes, and u wud have confirmed the fate of not getting what you wanted.

Me, on the other hand, I still want the dressing up part and going up on a small stage. Its almost every lil girl's dream - to be dolled up to be wed to her prince charming. As long as I still have the wedding i want, in jb, I'm happy.

So win-win right? He gets his no frills wedding in sg, i get my frilly wedding in jb. Ok what??

So i seriously honestly don't understand why he is kicking up a fuss abt it n telling me I'm not listening n not understanding everything he said.

He himself told me once - you don't like it, change it. do something abt it.

And yet when it comes to himself to heed his own advice, he fails. But he doesn't know it or admit it. He just keeps saying that there's no way for him to get what he want, and that I am not listening.


Seriously, i dunno if i still wanna go ahead with the wedding. If just planning our own wedding puts our relationship in such a turmoil as this, imagine how we'd be like when we have to face future obstacles in marriage, greater than this. Maybe love is not enough after all. I'm happy for D&N though. Not only do they love each other, but they are also excited to get married to each other. And just becos im happy for them, he told me to go n marry Dila. What the fuck?

Why was I the only one excited abt getting married? Well, doesn't matter, I'm not excited.. not anymore.


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May. 30th, 2010 11:22 am (UTC)
ok, the suruh kawin dila is very out of the line. aku kawin dila pe kaaaan!!! tapi takpe, aku chill. =)

anyway, it hasn't been all that easy for d&n gak. we argued here and there, tak bebual for a few days and the usual nonsense ah. take it one at a time ah, slowly list out the things the both of u want..get it on paper then work out a solution..together. sucks to be malay and suckier to have traditional fathers. (oh btw, kawan aku pe sirih tak layu tapi aku tau sungguh dia tak V)

takmo gado2..ni smua the stupid tests of being engaged..seperti yg dikatakan orang2 tua ah kan..aku ikut je cakap dorang.

aku kan senpai kau, apa2 tanya je. kalau aku leh tolong, aku tolong...unless it's abt money...i dont have it. hahahahhaha.
May. 30th, 2010 11:28 am (UTC)
He wants a small affair, n i think he can still have it, but he feels that there's no way he can get it (dia da penah ckp ngn parents but parents nak pelamin n all that).. so ntah la kan.. aku nak bebual ngn parents dia tapi dia tanak aku masuk campur..

neway, kau gi tanya ah kawan kau sape buat kan sirih dara dia.. mane tau kite leh hire same vendor.. hahahahaha..
May. 30th, 2010 01:51 pm (UTC)
mak dia buatkan -_-
akunya no choice, nenek aku kene buatkan..mak aku dah tanya =(
May. 31st, 2010 02:48 pm (UTC)
hmm.. then maybe nasib kot.. or maybe mak dia betul nye believe that dia V so the sirih says so ._. ntah lah kan.. neway, pada aku ni sumer nonsense.. too bad i have a dad who believes in this kind of nonsense :(
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